The Ugly Truth

Truth: I ate 2 bites of a pumpkin spice pancake!

Carbohydrates = Poison for me!! I know this, yet I put that fork to my mouth, twice! I did dump the rest into the garbage disposal to prevent my scarfing it down. It wasn't because I was hungry. I made a huge pancake for my son with some batter that had to be used up. He didn't finish it all. I was putting the plate by the sink. It was there & so was I.

I am not into deprivation. I can have anything I want. I just have to know I will never lose the weight I want to & I will most likely gain back what I have lost. I am not willing to do that. I know my faults. I cannot eat "just a little" of something I like that is bad for me. I will go back again & again until it is gone. I have to have an alternative or not be around those foods.

This isn't just about weight, it is about my health. I have MS.. I want to postpone being in a wheel chair as long as possible. I want to play outside & do activities with my children & grandchildren that I may not be able to do as the disease progresses. I want to fight for myself with every fiber of my being. That starts with my biggest personal issue.. my weight & my self esteem.

So here I am! I made a large skillet full of eggs with bacon bits & cheese. I put it in 4oz containers & put them on the top shelf (my shelf) in the fridge. The rest of my famiy know not to eat anything on that shelf. Now I can grab one of those & pop it in the microwave for 30 seconds & have something to eat that is a smart option!